“Even if I should choose to boast, I would not be a fool, because I would be speaking the truth. But I refrain, so no one will think more of me than is warranted by what I do or say, or because of surpassingly great revelations. Therefore, in order to keep me from becoming conceited, I was given a thorn in my flesh, a messenger of Satan, to torment me. Three times I pleaded with the Lord to take it away from me. But he said to me, “My GRACE is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me.” 2 Corinthians 12:6-9 NIV version
What I have learned along my healing journey is depression, anxiety, worry, and the feeling of loneliness don’t just go away. They are still here and sometimes very present in my every day life. HOWEVER, it is my choice of how I deal with them that is different…. I acknowledge their presence, and ask myself why am I feeling this way, and encourage myself through affirmations from God and my personal affirmations.
My favorite affirmation from God is: GREATER IS HE THAT IS IN ME THAN HE THAT IS IN THE WORLD. And I remind myself of that at least 50 times a day… it has become apart of my every day thoughts.
My favorite affirmation that I created myself is: Lindsey Janelle what is wrong with you gal… you do know you are the shit right… you do know that you are more than worthy right… get it together gal before we fall out boe… #PERIODT
God gave me those thorns in my side not to torture me but to keep me in relationship with HIM. (they are like gifts you get on Christmas that you didn’t ask for but eventually needing) In order for me to deal with THOSE thorns every day I have to have favor, mercy, and grace from HIM and how can I have favor, mercy, and grace if I am not in personal relationship with HIM.
It pleases me to tell you that your thorns are going to be with you forever and they are going to get tormented by satan and his punk ass demons. But, if you walk with GOD, hand in hand, he will help you handle the pain that they are trying to cause in your life. Get in relationship with God and the burden of your thorns will become light. For he knows the plan that he has for us but he also knows that if he took away our thorns we will go STRAIGHT CRAZY ON HIM. So, we have to keep them so that we will remain humble in his presence and depend solely on his grace, favor, and mercy forever.
I just want to encourage you to stay on your healing journey no matter the pain… it will be all worth it in the end!
The Chic Educator 🍎